24 Mar 2017

Klingon honor and the Minotaur - YouTube

Klingon honor and the Minotaur - YouTube





Planet de la Tourette 
People who are used to holding on to control can react heavily when that option is taken away. I remember the reactions of people after a heavy earthquake for this region. Lets just say that the navy seals are the first to mentally break when everything starts to move. In this way the ground can move in the mind, sometimes. Physiological shock can trigger it as well, I have noticed.
Few years back a wing of my cognition collapsed as a result of a narc attack. I remember it as being in an empty room with many door which all had a psychological diagnosis on it. With the suggestion of a gameshow: pick one now! So I just sat down in that room.
Frances Armstrong 
That is the farcical side of the aftermath, where you are asked to give an official explanation and apology for what happened to you. Choose a disease, any disease. It is a trap.
MadebyReuben 
interesting you say you escaped via eroticism

I became extremely apollonian and escaped via intellectualism, eroticising things was just so far out of sight for me,

when I was being crushed for being a potential criminal, I had displayed no criminal inclinations but like your situation, just the fear caused my family to behave crazily.

I too have felt those anagnorisis (to continue the ancient Greece theme) they are very scary and visceral but they also plunge you right into the real. when you cone out if then you are more aware for better or worse but more aware.

I had one recently when I realised why my grandmother had treated me and had it confirmed by an aunt.
MadebyReuben 
Frances Armstrong
I have been thinking recently about exploring that further as a way out so to speak but I've always thought of transgression as obvious and corny.

my grandmother was sexually assaulted and raped and she constantly would try to stifle my sexuality and libidinal energies incase I "interfered" with anyone.

again this started before I even began puberty so by the time I did that drive had already been beaten down inside of me.

The whole erotic world and consequently lust and desire for life always felt like some dangerous realm, of course that's me taking on my grandmothers fear.

I've found it hard to fall in love with life, because of it, as if to do so would be too much too to handle or maddening in someway
like bacchus and his devotees are driven mad with libidinal energy to point where they do grotesque things.
Frances Armstrong 
Ah!!! All interesting.

Since eroticism was precisely what had been forbidden me, it was the appropriate means to break the vicious cycle of moral self-condemnation.
Frances Armstrong 
To me it wasn't really "transgression", but the expanding of my psyche into the male terrain, to get what was already a part of me, but had been denied to me, I mean radically denied.
I can see why you have had the reaction you did. There may be other ways out for you, but all ways are difficult.

Klingon honor and the Minotaur - YouTube

Klingon honor and the Minotaur - YouTube



MadebyReuben10 minutes agoHighlighted comment
interesting you say you escaped via eroticism

I became extremely apollonian and escaped via intellectualism, eroticising things was just so far out of sight for me,

when I was being crushed for being a potential criminal, I had displayed no criminal inclinations but like your situation, just the fear caused my family to behave crazily.

I too have felt those anagnorisis (to continue the ancient Greece theme) they are very scary and visceral but they also plunge you right into the real. when you cone out if then you are more aware for better or worse but more aware.

I had one recently when I realised why my grandmother had treated me and had it confirmed by an aunt.
Frances Armstrong 
Ah!!! All interesting.

Since eroticism was precisely what had been forbidden me, it was the appropriate means to break the vicious cycle of moral self-condemnation.
Jade Haj 
Sending love and light. I hope you dont mind.
Frances Armstrong 
Thank you, but all is well now.