Excellent!!!!! You absolutely addressed the questions I was working
to form, even tho' I did not ask them well. I'm realizing part of the challenge
for me personally, is the issue of disparate or warring parts. There is the
literal physical history of a "tri-racial" family, and all that meant as a person;
("Yes, those people are part of your family, but they do not talk to us because
your great grandmother, their sister, married your great grandfather who was
of mixed race, so now they won't have anything to do with us.") "Hide your
accent or they'll think you're dumb". "Now hide your other accent, or
they'll think you're uppity." "Pretend you're from somwhere else."
Sit up straight. Not THAT straight, now you look haughty. Don't look
them in the eye, they'll think you're aggressive. Look them in the
eye, or they'll think you're lying about something. Exhausting!!!!!

Having stumbled upon your ideas and Marechera's writing, has been
a very exciting time for me. It is an opportunity to accept all the
warring pieces for exactly what they are, and let them be a sort of
wholeness all their own. So long, I tried to somehow homogenize
myself. Now I realize, it's not necessary. To attempt it, wasn't helpful.
However, intellectual shamanism is becoming for me, the natural
outgrowth of all that reading I did away back when, of Foucault and
Jeffery Jerome Cohen; because to me, their thinking was absolutely
all about power and how it is used by people pretending they
aren't using it. Those things, I could absolutely see. What I could
not see, was how I could use these ideas personally and internally,
to create my own inner wildness in which to be truly free.

As always, thank you.